21 February 2013

soft moments

I was walking past the kitchen on my fourth day off from work with the flu, when I saw this light leaking into the kitchen, creating perfect golden ponds on the walls and floor. It's been a dark winter here in Russia, and catching a glimpse of the sweet sun has been rare. I stood transfixed as the light crept higher and higher up towards the ceiling, dwarfing me.

I had left a vase of dying roses in the kitchen that I was planning to cut and save as well as a few pastries Ben and I bought this morning from a stand outside our apartment. The sun just curled and spoiled around them, filling the entire room with vibrating life. I stood for a few moments in awe of the quiet moment and then I grabbed my camera to capture it.
Pictures don't do this moment of sunshine justice, but I had to keep it.






"live in the sunshine, swim the sea, drink the wild, wild air..."


There have been a lot of anxieties in this little home. The double u's have come. Worry, worry, worry. Our jobs ask a lot of us and it is stressful to meet every demand. The MCATs are approaching and Ben is studying harder than ever. And he's worried. He's not sure if he's ready, but plane tickets to Munich (the closest testing station to Moscow) must be bought, a seat must be reserved. Decisions and responsibilities loom over us constantly. Everything is pressing and adulthood did not wait for us to settle into a post-college groove. It came for us quickly and there are times I feel like I've lost my gravity. 

But then there is sunshine in your kitchen, and the promise of weekend mornings, and walks through your snowy neighborhood, and croissants from the bakery to remind you that you are alive and good and that your worries are important worries, but they will pass. These are important things to remember and never take for granted. 

9 comments:

  1. I can relate to this because on our last trips to Europe the sun usually peaks in for a few minutes or seconds only. We cherished the days when the sun was shining. I think that is one of the reasons why I don't mind living in Chicago; even though it might be freezing outside, the sun comes out...and everything is better when the sun radiates.
    By the way I love your new header!

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    1. You're living in Chicago? I'm from Chicago! Such a great city, and I am totally missing the sunshine over there. : )

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  2. Molly B. - Los AngelesFebruary 21, 2013 at 4:09 PM

    "With freedom, books, flowers, and the moon, who could not be happy?" -- Oscar Wilde

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  3. It's so exciting and yet scary at times to jump out into the world and do something new. I had my son when I was 22 years old, all planned exactly that way (I'd always wanted to have a kid early on) and I'd say we didn't really have 'it' down until about one month ago! Even though I currently deal with a lot of anxiety, I can knowingly say that it is always scary at times being an 'adult' but things eventually make more sense and calm down. Good luck for Ben on his MCAT and good luck for you recovering from the flu!

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    1. Thank you so much for your encouragement, that's so nice to hear : )

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  4. Also wanted to say the third picture down in my favorite and has nice composition!

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    1. Thank you! I'm a crap photographer most of the time, but I appreciate the compliment!

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  5. oh my. love the pretty light

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