I just found that a couple of minutes ago, and I want to share it with as many people as I can. Isn't it so touching? Don't you feel so swallowed up in it?
I feel like I am deeply in the question years. Any decision I make is hanging free in the air with no clues or hints--just dangling and waiting. I make choices that I do not always believe in, but they are the only choices and sometimes you just have to go with your gut. It is just my life right now and there is nothing I can do about it. I just have to sit and wonder and wait.
Maybe it's my age, maybe it's my strange living situation, or maybe it's just me. But a few years ago, when I packed up my bags and moved to a small school to study writing, and only writing, and to sit outside with friends and smoke cigarettes and talk about books, and to fall in love with everyone who passed by, and to go to every concert, every movie, every party... those were the times of certainty. I questioned things, but not the way I question them now. And they were different questions, young girl questions. I don't think I realized how firm everything was for me back then.
It feels good lost, though. Not all the time, but as a whole. Like a spinning, vibrant buzz that fills your ears and drips down your spine.
Anyway. I used to listen to this album when I felt like I understood the life I was living and it would feel wrong if I didn't share it with you now. It's daydreaming music, but you probably wouldn't be here if you weren't a daydreamer too.
Let me know what you think, if you like.